Chapter 7: Oh How the Mighty Fall in Love

    I am completely, stupidly, just uncalled for in love with my Fiance.

    Not that it's a bad thing, but is it really a good thing to be so caught up with
someone else that nothing else matters?

Is this how it appears to others?

  I don't think I am as bad as Golem here, but sometimes Tony is. This last year was horrible.

I've stated before on here we had a bit of a rough patch and I was very close to leaving after losing my expo job, but over the holiday we worked on our shit and were doing a lot better most days. 

Now ladies who are reading this What do you do when your man does not want to go to work? The way I go about it is I tell Tony his ass is not calling in. We are trying to catch up bills he has to go. I mean I went to work for 2 weeks just sick as sin and never did I call in. We've not been at our new jobs long enough to call in. Shit happens yes, but don't go and make it happen. 

Now I have trouble forgetting myself, but I always go to work. Why is that so hard for him to do?

  The last thing I want to do in the early morning is fight with the love of my life but he just keeps on. I don't want to have the same fights every fucking day. Who the fuck does?

       

We're not in a fight club. We're suppose to be lovers.

      It may not be quite everyday we have this issue but it's often enough for me to have told him I disliked him highly this morning. He just replied that he hates me at moments too. Im sure its normal but first thing in the morning? No. I'm glad I was able to just sleep in today. Otherwise it would have been the only thing running thru my mind all day. " I hate you at moments too." Why? Because I tell you to go to work? Go fuck yourself Tony. 

I do everything for him and fucking go to work on top of it. If he would actively look into giving up his rights to his bastard then maybe he wouldn't have to work two jobs just to remotely make what I do.  

Yeah I hope you see this too Danielle. You're free ride is about to end too you fat whore getting part of my budget when he does not even get to see the kid? You're a terrible person and have helped in making him the worst he has ever been. 

  Maybe one day my life will become better since this is technically the hole I have dug for myself.