Chapter 15: The Bell Tolls Twice for the Unlucky

Man oh man has it been an eventful two months of massive bullshit beyond proportions.
I don't know if I ever fully typed out the skinny of the aftermath of Hurricane McLovin&Brainiac but it was not the greatest storm I have lived thru drama wise with Taylor. Needless to say she and I are finished forever. I almost do not even want to see the children again. When they are older and want to look me up that's fine, but I cannot have their mother and her choice of lovers in my life.

I know in previous entries I have said that Denny.s would never become my life, but little did I know how much I would enjoy working with my boss. I have been promoted to shift manager and start in a few weeks after she gets back from vacation. A trip mind you our store won for her. I have even made a few friends from there. Some not working there any longer but we have still stayed friend which is nice seeing all the drama that occurred with Taylor. Maybe one day I will fully type it out on here but for now I would rather let sleeping dogs lie. Shes a master manipulator and I've got 99 problems and that bitch ain't one of them.

I adopted a new kitten and named him Vampyre Bill. Bruce and him are my entire world. I honestly never understood how someone could love their pets so much, but now being a pet owner of two rotten cats I totally understand. I spend more on them than myself any day. When someone asks if I have kids my response is " Two boy cats Bruce and Vampyre Bill." they look at me like I am ignorant but they are pretty much the equivalent of having a child. I have to feed, bath, clean, pick up after, chase around, and etc before my day ends. It's always worth it though at the end of the day when they are sleepy and want to go to bed with "Mom" or curl up with me on the couch. Bill reminds me so much of Bruce as a baby that its unreal.

Eww and I am also so fucking disgusted with myself. I thru a shit fit bc my local vapor shop isnt going to carry the type of coils I prefer to buy for my new xpro m80 plus from Smok Tech. I was livid. So that week I didnt buy a new coil thinking I could make the one I had last until I had a co-worker pick my preferred coil up in Illinois. I smoked some cigs, So now I am craving them something awful. Ugh I made it ten fucking months, and look at me now as I type out my blog post that at least three or more were due since July. I'm a loser baby =p lol

Chapter 14: Hush Little Baby Don't Say a Word, Sissy's Gonna Put Her 2 Cents In

My younger sister is totally out of hand... Now I realize that we are not little kids anymore and that we are making our own way in life, that we have our own "families' now, but some of the things I have witnessed this past week has really got me wondering how she is actually living. How can you live in the low income apartments and just act as though nothing is wrong at all i mean you are living off the govt and that is just not cool. i really wish she would just wake up and smell the roses but that is very unlikely to happen seeing as though I have been waiting for it to happen for well over 2 years now.

 I would fucking love to be in her shoes and live in the same town as my whole family and be able to spend time with them, but she is too worried she is going to miss her next visit from some loser on that hill. Let me put it this way when Mother dropped me off to visit my Daddy and brothers she gave specific instructions that Pookie was not to share her snack that Mom bought her with her neighbor. Well right after mom left and I got caught up visiting with Dad she disappeared with the baby back over to her apartment to see a neighbor. 

Wtf? I am never in town. I barely know my nephew. It just blows me away that she did that. To top it all off today is her birthday and she decided to go see one of her low life friends whom is relation to her white trash baby daddy, who is on bedrest in the hospital on the verge of having her 2nd baby at the whopping age of 18 or 20. It's fucking gross. I just can't believe she blew off a pool party to go fuck off in Indy at the lame hospital with all those losers. I am so totally over her at this point. Earlier this week her and the baby daddy about went to jail over paraphernalia . It's just a sad situation and I just hope she wakes up before its too late. And for the love of god I hope she does not marry Stephen. Oh God how I hope she never marries that white trash bag full of shit.

Chapter 13: Lamb's I Declare War Against Thee! We will not take it anymore!

I am so fucking tired of LAMB's getting jobs and just acting like they can talk however they fucking want to people and just do whatever they want all because they are "Life after Meth" I fucking could careless what these fucking people chose to do when they were kids. I enjoy smoking ganja but you don't see me asking for a free pass to call people " Fucking Bitch" at work where the general public can hear since our kitchen is one where you see the cooks cooking.

I am getting to where i enjoy my job more so than in the beginning because I am just now finally getting everything, and you know what? I'm getting good, and by good I mean I have regulars who wait for me to come into work to feed them. I am so sorry for how this morning went in all because I have been busting my ass to be professional and keep my cool even when I am totally pissed off.

I really think I am going to look into transferring to the French Lick Denny's and just start new with Tony there because I am beyond finished with Vincennes and the meth heads who feel like the world owes them something. Guess what mother fuckers you can't keep blaming others when it keeps repeating.

 I know for a fact that the POS that went off on me today has been spinning and has relapsed after a year or so of being clean. Its a shame but you know he's not near the caliber of cook I am at Dennys or anywhere else. I'd show that fucker what the five fingers say to the face with any of my dishes compared to the dog shit he puts out. I hate that fuck and now its my goal to make sure he is fired.  I have tried for months to get along with this fuck and then he just does this. I be damn any man is going to call me a fucking bitch and get away with it at work, and then tell me I am going to lose my job just because he's the bosses pet.

Mike Waterberry you have started a war that you will not win you piece of dog shit.

Chapter 12: The FML FIles Of Miss Chanel

Murphy's Law ain't no joke fool. Damn if I do, Damn if I don't.

"I hate feeling like I'm bothering the people who claim to miss me. If you miss me then you would have me call. Don't tag me or blow up my stuff anymore if it just kills you to reply to me. Sorry I work and can't make it home so no one really knows me anymore. That's okay though. Was going to ask to call and see if I could get some help, but no one has helped me really since I've been up here so why think any different today? "


---- I wish I could make the above Facebook status, but it's a cheap shot and I know it. I know they're busy and sometimes don't want to talk on the phone, but at least I just texted "Whatcha doing" and the response I get back from Mother is " Just got back from sisters. I spent the day with her...." so I then replied "That's cool, I seen the photos on FB." and she just leaves off there. With her three periods just lingering in my mind, like unfinished business with a ghost. Haunting me. What did the dot dot dot mean? Is she annoyed that her oldest child checked in after a week of being MIA. How could I annoy her almost two hours away? It's not as though we live together. Hell we never really lived together.

"This is how I feel about my whole home away from home problem. I love my family, but we don't even know another anymore. Why should I bust my ass to see them when they are more in the means to come see me? It's not fair, but when really is life ever truly fair? Never friends. Never is life fair."
----- Kandace Chanel June 24, 2015

I just feel so outta the loop with my own family that it hurts. Tony does not understand because as I have mentioned previously he doesn't really have any family. Today we found out his parents changed the locked on the house. So much for cheating my way outta going to the laundromat on tuesday on my most likely only day off next week.

I shit you not this is what I have to deal with. Now this is not the exact photo of where I do my clothes, but it's mines cleaner twin. It's sad when you pay to have you're clothes washed, but they end up stinking anyway from the nastiness of the machines and gas dryers. Shame on the Vincennes laundromat. I hate you motherfuckers.

My favourite co-worker took a leave of absence for five weeks today. I truly do not know how I am going to survive on the weekends without Wayne. Him and his Boston accent make me feel as though I am not at work slaving away for the people of southern illinois and indiana. He pretends that we work on an airline, so he and I use air control lingo as our kitchen jargon. I will miss the old man. At least Jennifer and a few of the other good ones are still around. Oh how I yearn for the day that Mike leaves. I hate that fat dumb fucker. He's just plain old useless, and he's like thirty years younger than Old Man Wayne. You would think Wayne would be the one slacking, but it's unfortunately the other way round. Wayne will be checking into an hospital for the time off work, I just hope he gets better and is able to come back to us at Denny's.

Old man Wayne is my Goose. I don't know what the fuck I am going to do without him. What's a woman suppose to do without her wingman?

***** SO FAR THE WEEKEND HAS FUCKING SUCKED WITHOUT GOOSE THE NEW GUY (I REFUSE TO CALL HIM BY HIS REAL NAME ) JW IS A FUCKING IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAYNE COME HOME!

JK GET WELL BUDDY.

Jimmy Fallon feat. will.i.am - Ew! (Official Music Video)

Chapter 11: Ew

https://youtu.be/uMBXhDcogcI

The video above has just made my last few days. Jimmy Fallon and Will.I.Am are just amazeballs lol.


The last week has just been complete and total garbage. When the fuck is the month of May going to end? Lol I know its suppose to be in a few days (duh!) but it just seems like the month of May has just dragged on and on. Then again I do work in a place where you pretty much do the same fucking thing day in and day out. The only differences in days in the order of which food has come in. For the most part at my Dennys we feed the same people all day everyday. Which is not a bad thing but my god has everyone really got so lazy in the world that they just dont know how to cook so therefore everyone goes out to eat for every meal? Don't get me wrong there are many nights that I just dont feel like cooking, but most nights its a home cooked meal on the table. Not something from work, Taco Bell, or any other fast food. Thats how it should be. In my opinion. I just cant get over these old fucks who come in and stare at my ass as I am cooking and eat every fucking meal at the restaurant. Then when you catch them staring they just start laughing and talking loud. It pisses me off on a daily basis. One old man that comes in and eats is named Ed and us cooks play a game called "Ed's here" this game consists of whoever sees Ed first has to say to some other cook "Hey Ed is here" and you win the game. This little old man comes in and eats almost the same things every day for every meal. On my shift I cook him spaghetti. I can understand his old ass not cooking for himself anymore he's like eighty years old, but these other men that are our regulars really have no reason. One of them even insists his food be cut up because he had a stroke. Now we do it and we do it with a smile on our faces but damn. He is a married man who has to come in and joke with two other fucks. Blah. I just want to fucking scream thinking about it all.

Since I love the Ew video so much I am going to share my own list of Ew to make me feel a tad bit better about my day at work today.

"Hello my name is Kandace, 

That's Kandace with a K, 

because C's are Ew.

Too bad if you don't like it, because haters are gonna hate. 

Retweeting tweets, too shiny of lip gloss, 

People who talk over other people, and 

people who repeatedly go out to eat, 

people who have too many children, 

and coffee that was brewed to weak.

Here were just a few things that I find Ew."

Chapter 10: 10 things I hate in life.

 1.) I hate stupid stupid. This is a wide array of things. Whether it be stupid questions, actions, movies, video games, magazine, e-books you name it it can be stupid. So do me a favor and keep the stupidity to yourself.

2.) I hate PDA. Enough said.

3.) I hate liars.

4.) I hate thieves.

5.) I hate making plans just to end up not following them. I mean c'mon why fucking write out these lists and plans if you're not even going to remember this was the plan. I am guilty of doing this a lot. For example I have wrote down the pH levels and plans of what the plants are going into, and I had three days off back to back from work. What do I do? I leave my little book of plans at work. Just fucking dumb. The whole three days off that I have had have just been fucking wasted. Im so frustrated about this past horrible weekend at denny's and my ignorant boyfriend.

6.) I hate drunks. Alcoholism runs in my family on both sides extremely bad so I don't hardly drink and I do not care for anyone who does.

7.) I hate snobs.

8.)  I hate meth. It's a drug that's had a horrible impact on my life growing up. My parents were both afflicted by the drug. My Mother has been in recovery for almost ten years. I love the show Breaking Bad, but seeing what it actually does to a family first hand is certainly not how it is portrayed on TV.

9.) I hate people who hate on other people's fandoms. I mean nerds, geeks, whatever you want to stereotype people who enjoy science fiction and other make believe things, have it hard enough from non fandom loving people who just don't know what in the world we are talking about. Don't come up to me and be like "You know that Doctor Who show? It really blows because it is British. I do not enjoy British television."  I am a huge fan of Doctor Who and British television in general.

10.)  I hate askhole's. People who ask for advice, but just do the exact opposite of what you told them would be the best course of action. My best friend is turning into one of these people over her white trash bag full of dog shit boyfriend. She had the nerve to tell me yesterday that the night before when I came up and saved her from getting hit that if I would not have shown up that they would have just had sex and been fine. That is totally fucking fucked up. Who says that to their best friend of over 15 years? C'mon.

It's been a horrible week and it just keeps getting progressively worse, but what's new?